01 June 2008

Why I Want to Post but Never Do

It is a problem of translation. I have lost the ability (if I ever had it in the first place) to translate my thoughts into words. To translate my thoughts into thoughts. To transform a vague, instinctual sense of importance into quantifiable, measurable thought-units. To break down the whirling into elements that my rational mind can understand. To untangle the matted mental hairball into recognizable strings of thought.

I don't have time and I can't be bothered. In the next few days, before I can write or think or tackle the tangle in my mind, I must:

packboxesfactchecksaygoodbyesweepcleanhavemeetingswrapthingsup

But I would rather sit alone and think. Too many thoughts are waiting to form. I want to let them.

14 comments:

  1. I may be a douchebag, but I'd appreciate you materializing your thoughts into words ... otherwise, how on earth would trideo every come about?

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  2. Trideo? What is trideo? Is this a pop culture reference I am not familiar with?

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  3. Trideo is a word created in by Theodore Sturgeon in his fiction "Mr. Costello, Hero"-science fiction. It's about galaxies and philosophy

    Trideo is a device capable of transmitting or displaying a three dimensional image.

    In a sense, I am hoping that you can create another perspective that I can view, a window into another dimension ....but its shut off to me unless you write.

    Signed,

    A douchebag.

    Watch a cool ukrainian video featuring the word here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nucDTEGsg4M

    Viva the orange revolution!@

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  4. How fascinating! Which particular douchebag are you? Do I know you, or are you a random stalker? And why do you feel I have another perspective to offer?

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  5. Fascinating, really? I'm the douchebag that got you to write more in one evening than you've posted all month ... I'm your douchebag inspiration. You may not have anything worth to offer, you could try though, write something real and not ripped off like so many other authors do.

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  6. I write plenty all the time... just not necessarily here. But I send an awful lot of emails.

    What do you consider "real"?

    Also, I notice you're checking this blog from somewhere in Maryland. I wasn't aware I had any friends currently in Maryland. Do I know you?

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  7. Whose stalking who!? I use a proxy to access the internet! Otherwise sites like hulu are blocked to me.

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  8. I'm not stalking you so much as I am stalking my sitemeter page.

    I am puzzled that you continue to insist upon anonymity. Really, I don't bite.

    Well, that's not strictly true. I actually do bite. But affectionately.

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  9. Well, you are anonymous to me as well ... I've stumbled across the blog and thought you could use some encouragement to continue writing. Do you watch the new battlestar galactica? I do fancy myself as baltar! What fantasy character would you like to represent you?

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  10. You stumbled across the blog from my facebook profile, apparently. Which means you are either my facebook friend or a member of my school's network. Which is it?

    I would rather represent myself than be represented by a fantasy character.

    And yes, I have watched Battlestar Galactica. I got through several seasons of it, but then it became irritating, so I gave it up.

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  11. It is probably silly that we are having this conversation here. Since you came from my facebook profile, you can see what my email address is. Feel free to email me, whether from your own address or an anonymous one.

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  12. Wait, does this mean you're not coming back?! (momentary spasm of panic!!!)
    Or are you just packing for the summer and stuff?!

    -Emily C

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  13. Was packing for the summer when this was written (on 1 June). Am now back in Toronto. Definitely coming back. We will party it up next year, dude!

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